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2011-07-26T17:27:00.015-04:00

patiencepey-shuhns | noun[ i ] the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.[ ii ] an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay[ iii ] quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligenceI am not the most patient person. I know it. My parents know it. Even some of my

2011-03-09T09:30:00.004-05:00

sabbath(derived from the Hebrew Shabbat (שַׁבָּת), "to cease")I've been getting more and more resounding hints that I'm in dire need of rest. Not just physical, but mental, emotional, spiritual, etc. Looking back at posts from the summer, life was kinda insanely hectic. And while most would think that things should slow down with the ending of softball and people going into hibernation and what

2010-09-30T09:24:00.003-04:00

gelato & ice creamSo it's been about a month now since the official ending of summer... both time-wise and weather-wise. I gotta say, I think this past summer has been one of the best of my life to date. I played a fair share of sports (frisbee & softball), hung out with old friends, met some new friends, and had lots and lots of gelatos and ice cream.Sports consisted of the following jersey

2010-08-13T08:48:00.006-04:00

oh happiness"Happiness is finding out you're not so dumb after all."- peanuts, a treasury of happinessMaybe it's all the exercise I get from ultimate twice a week, maybe it's having more time to hang out with people while also getting pockets of me-time in, or maybe it's simply that I'm loving the season in life that I'm in... but I've been feeling quite the awesome as of late. August has seen a

2010-06-18T23:57:00.004-04:00

in the dark...So life has been quite the whirlwind lately. Summer has kicked off and with that is the busyness that is the summer. Playing an onslaught of sports, featuring monday and thursday ultimate, friday slo-pitch and a weekend of softball. Tack on small group on tuesdays and I'm pretty much just left with wednesdays as my only "open day". It's been exhausting to be on the go seemingly

2010-05-12T12:44:00.006-04:00

randomnessIt's been awhile and I figure some randomness mid-way through the work day and mid-way through the work week would be fun... so here goes... A few of my favourite things (i.e. little things that bring unintentional smiles):• the feeling of brand new socks• brushing with a brand new toothbrush... so nice on the gums• wearing clothes / wrapping yourself up in a blanket right out of the

2009-12-08T16:20:00.007-05:00

insight & intellectI've learned a lot at my new job. Not just career-wise, but about myself, about life, about the way people are and what makes them tick. That being said, I work with some very intelligent and insightful people. Here's some snippets from said people:"Past behaviour is the best predictor of future behaviour."- R. K. "Most relationships would fall apart if we were always brutally

2009-12-03T12:59:00.005-05:00

clay & moldingWay back when, in high school art class, I remember having a few sessions on clay and pottery. When we first got the clay it was literally this huge slab. We had to use string/wire to cut through the clay, cuz there was no way a knife would be able to make a dent in the thing. Even with the string/floss/wire, it was still quite the difficult to cut. So the substance being that dense

2009-08-21T00:00:00.007-04:00

clichén. a trite, stereotyped expression; a sentence or phrase, usually expressing a popular or common thought or idea, that has lost originality, ingenuity, and impact by long overuse.. . . . ."Hitting where it hurts.""Time heals all wounds.""Absence makes the heart grow fonder.""Out of sight, out of mind.""There are plenty of fish in the sea.""Actions speak louder than words.""Back against the

2009-08-13T10:49:00.004-04:00

proverbs 3:5-6'ingI've been here before, this proverbial fork in the road. It's a different scene, and yet eerily similar. Sensations of deja vu come and go as I assess what's going on and how I got here again. I know it's not the exact same place I was before. It can't be the same place cuz I'm not the exact same person, and how I got here is different from the last time I was faced with a

2009-06-18T14:01:00.002-04:00

summertimeSummer is now upon us (though with the gray clouds and misting rain outside, you'd think otherwise). I have kind of a love/hate relationship with the summer season. I love the weather, the warmth, the longer days. I love the activities, the sports, the ability to spend time outdoors. But on the flip side, working full-time doesn't allow me to enjoy the weather and the warmth much from

2009-01-01T17:21:00.003-05:00

countingWith the New Year now upon us, I figured it'd be a good thing to just stop and rest, and count my blessings of 2008. When I think about the past year, I realize that a lot happened, and there's a lot to be thankful for. So before looking ahead and figuring out what I'd like to accomplish in '09, there might be some merit in looking back first. The count begins (in no particular order

2008-12-18T11:02:00.003-05:00

new job'dIt's been awhile, I'm aware. So far the only really big update is that I've gotten myself outta the advertising agency world and into the realm of brand positioning and market research. I've been here for about 2 months now and loving every moment of it. Granted, it's still work, but so far it's been quite the great. It may just be the proverbial "honeymoon phase", but I'm okay with

2008-06-12T23:32:00.005-04:00

pinkynoun the finger farthest from the thumb (syn the little finger){ref: www.dictionary.com}so last last weekend, i was warming up for our softball game and a grounder bounced up funny and hit my 4th and 5th fingers (ring and little fingers) on my right hand. the 4th finger was fine, but by the time the 1st inning rolled around, my pinky finger was quite the swollen, to the point where i could

2008-05-22T14:07:00.002-04:00

advertising o.O got some time left over from my lunch break... only took 15 mins to eat then got pulled away to do something >.< but anyhows... for a lot of people who've talked to me about my job and asked the question of whether i like it or not, my answer has always been "meh, it's alright, i guess" or "it's okay, i'm learning a lot, so i guess that's good" or something similar along those

2008-05-05T11:57:00.005-04:00

here we go...haven't really been on the blog scene for a while... and from what i gather from the advertising industry and just from observations as a whole, blogging seems to be on the downward trend nowadays. facebook's really where it's at... the current hawt item and where people will post notes (which are eerily similar to blogs) about themselves, their thoughts, etc. anyhows, despite the

2008-01-10T23:24:00.000-05:00

belongingit's been a long while i know. i'm sure there are a buncha things to reflect on with regards to the events of 2007, but as of late i've been thinking a lot about the whole idea of belonging. as humans we're social beings... we're created to be... God wired us that way... and there's physiological proof of it with parts of our brain specifically created to recognize faces and such. i'm

2007-08-20T23:49:00.000-04:00

there is a time..."There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a

2007-05-06T21:56:00.000-04:00

reflectionsit's been awhile, and i'm wholly aware that this post is probably one that's long overdue. regardless, i have some time now, so why not post up some reflections on the past 4 years of my life. :Pit's quite the nostalgic time i suppose, stopping and looking back at where i am now and how far i've come and how far i've yet to go. i know it's cliche and all, but i'm now more than acutely

2007-01-07T16:24:00.000-05:00

2007 | to be changed . to see change |so a new year has begun. a new semester is under way. it's been a while since i've blogged so i figure in my mini procrastinating, why not take some time to reflect on the previous year, and hope for the new one.so many things are different from when i did this exactly a year ago and set for myself the desire to be a blessing to others... so many things are

2006-10-27T23:30:00.000-04:00

been awhileso i know i've been MIA for a bit on my blog. but seeing as to how no one really bugs me about it, it just gets pushed aside... figure if ppl wanna know 'bout stuff goin on w/ me, they'll either just ask me, or start buggin me to blog about stuff more :D anyhoo... this is what's been up as of late in point form:1. where i've been: Hermit-land... i believe i've been crowned its queen2.

2006-08-21T10:04:00.000-04:00

... a season of change ...... a whirlwind of thoughts ... ... a thousand thanks ...this past weekend has been an interesting one. lemme think of where to begin... . . . . . . . . . .hows about i start with the Lions 2006. we made the playoffs this year... it was the first time i've ever been in the playoffs in the senior division, so that on its own was nerve-racking. our team pulled together,

2006-08-07T20:00:00.000-04:00

“The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved -- loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.”- victor hugoso, it's been a while since i've blogged... been a while since i've updated anything (was meaning to do one of those obligatory updates, but i never really got around to do it). so how's about i start with a mini-update and then blog more about what's

2006-06-08T08:54:00.000-04:00

{ striving . yearning . seeking }so i've been reflecting a lot in the past couple of days, just about the past year, about how different things were this time last year. been thinking about all the things that have come and gone, circumstances of joy and sorrow, times of trial and times of jubilation, and all the things that i have been taught and have learned as a result...in all this reflecting

2006-05-09T13:30:00.000-04:00

geese: 4, hazel: 0 actually, i guess i might've won ONE battle...so the other day, i got to school quite early, a good 3.5 hours or so before my class. i was really sore from playing softball over the weekend, so my intention of working out or going running at the track didn't really push through. so anyhow, because it was such a beautiful day out, i didn't feel like cooping myself up in the ccf

2006-05-02T12:14:00.000-04:00

more than meets the eye...as of late, i've been coming to the conclusion that if people seem to like what they see, they don't bother trying to figure out if there's more to the story. it's like they fail to realize that what is seen and what's overt is just the surface and that most often than not there's so much more going on than they are aware of... that there's a ton of hidden and

2006-04-17T10:27:00.000-04:00

it has begun well it began quite a while ago, but i just haven't blogged about it :)sun out, longer days, more free time, ... and we all know what that means... softball season is upon us yet again. but well it was never really not upon us... cuz well i go to etcbc... it's still there even in the winter time... it's just a little more dormant i guess. :P regardless, with the nice weather out, the

2006-03-30T09:19:00.000-05:00

it's gonna be okay ...ever feel as though you're in the dark about things? you don't really know what the next step is in life ... or what to do in particular situations... it's funny cuz in those times, we usually either a) try to fix things ourselves, and take numerous stabs in the dark in attempting to figure out what the right choice is... or b) we go running to God asking for answers, for

2006-03-23T08:27:00.000-05:00

... the bubble ...population: 1it's been a good two weeks since i've blogged, and perhaps this entry will explain a little of why. as of late, i've been finding myself retreating more and more into my own little world, preoccupied with my own mini-dramas, and well hiding more and more in my schoolwork. i can't precisely pinpoint as to why i've taken on this defense mechanism/retreat strategy, but

2006-03-06T01:18:00.000-05:00

"... the first moments ..."and so i haven't blogged in a REALLY REALLY long time. not that nothing's been going on, or that i haven't had anything to say... just that things for the past couple of weeks have been quite the whirlwind... school, church, fellowship, friends, etc. overall things have been alright... pretty good.. great... good times with friends and family... but i'll go into a more

2006-02-12T20:36:00.000-05:00

* comfort *can you tell what this blog's gonna be about? :) anyways, been meaning to do this for quite some time now, but never really got the chance to just sit and actually DO it. and so in light of the beginning of reading week before i tackle the rest of life, i shall sit and blog a bit. :) let us begin, shall we? beginning i guess with the revelations that i came upon after a mentoring

2006-01-25T22:14:00.000-05:00

* perpetual confusion *i realize that i haven't updated in a while... my apologies. the workload at school is exponentially increasing, and to top it all off, the past couple of weeks have been quite drama-filled... (hazel's life = living soap opera) ... and so let's say blogging hasn't exactly been top priority. anyhoo, what is there to say. after some time to finally sit and figure out what's

2006-01-07T22:56:00.000-05:00

be a blessing ... alright, so this is much overdue, but let's just say that much thought was needed before any conclusions were reached. :) anyhoo... a new year is upon us... the new school semester has begun (well at least for us yorkies) and things are well... different. here are some comparisons...last semester: went to ccf every wednesday and pretty much hung out in the office all day on

2005-12-19T18:58:00.000-05:00

"...you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins."- matthew 1:21and so CHRISTmas is only 6 days away! where did all that time go??? it seems as though the last thing i remember was finishing my exam on the 9th... then i blinked and now CHRISTmas is almost upon us! anyhoo, i've been hustling and bustling as with many other people, kinda scrambling to get

2005-12-14T12:38:00.000-05:00

"Can I Stay Here Forever"StarfieldThrough forgotten convictionsMisplaced affectionsI'm losing the sound of Your voiceI've been chasing after emptinessTrying to tidy up this messI swear I've been down this road beforeI want to get back to where it all beganWhen I would long for only YouLike a child I'll take You at Your wordAs these mountains of doubt, they fade awayI'm longing to trust and love

2005-12-12T20:28:00.000-05:00

... moving forward, moving on ..."Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."proverbs 4:23Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer.From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe.I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the

2005-12-04T23:05:00.000-05:00

... a quiet lesson in patience ...I WonderI wonder, I wonderI wonder why eachLittle bird has someoneTo sing to sweet things toA gay little love melody?I wonder, I wonderIf my heart keeps singingWill my song go wingingTo someone who'll find meAnd bring back a love song to me?-----Some Day My Prince Will ComeSome day my prince will comeSome day we'll meet againAnd away to his castle we'll goTo be

2005-11-25T00:34:00.000-05:00

*sigh*today was just one of those days. when things just don't seem to go right. not that anything really horrible or horrendous happened, it's just a buncha little things that added up to become a big thing. and all in all, it ended up to be quite the crumby day, despite my hopes that things would turn up and get better.here's a truncated version of my day:- felt a bit discouraged to start off-

2005-11-19T22:31:00.000-05:00

There's something about ... There's something about Christmas trees that bring excitement and anticipation,There's something about the lights on the tree that make the room all aglow,There's something about ribbonsthat liven a dull green background,There's something about the ornamentsthat brings a twinkle to the eye,There's something about the star on topthat brings warm fuzzy feelings,There's

2005-11-18T10:59:00.000-05:00

"... we are built to be together ..."- nova science video segmenta lot has been on my mind as of late. not necessarily things that are stressing me, just a lot of reflection and what not. guess i've been on the bus quite a bit... and i haven't been napping as much, so that leaves a lot of time for thinking *cue scary music*. anyhow.. since i've been thinking about a lot and not blogging a whole

2005-11-10T22:38:00.000-05:00

"God created human beings so that by looking upon them, he sees reflected something of himself."- NIV Student Bible: Guided tour of Genesis 2being a third year design student, i've started noticing that there's a part of myself in every design that i concoct. people would look at something and tell me that it looks like something that i would design/do. and it's kinda funny, cuz when i do certain

2005-11-06T00:45:00.000-05:00

"Be still and know that I am God."Psalm 46:10for the past... let's say two weeks or so, this verse has been resounding in my head. it's also a verse that i've come across a lot in my daily activities (i.e. on picture frames at work, in some books that i pick up, in messages i hear...). and well i've come to the conclusion that i think God is trying to tell me something. i've found that i've

2005-10-25T01:19:00.000-04:00

...so, after being sick for two weeks... *sigh* ... i've been in quite a jumble. trying to get caught up with missing 2 weeks worth of school, and being in design, missing ONE class is bad enough, much less 2 classes, and so the race to get caught up is quite the task. but by God's grace, i'm pretty much getting caught up quickly (Thankfully). physically, i think i'm pretty much at optimum level.

2005-10-09T23:13:00.000-04:00

* just wait * i asked God to take away my afflictionjust waiti asked God for a rapid recoveryjust waiti asked why it was taking so long?just waiti asked if not now then when?just waiti asked why not now?just waitfinally, after much frustration, i said, fine, i'll wait. yet in my impatience, i asked God, how long do i wait for?just waitand in desperation, God when will you answer my prayer?just

2005-09-26T09:23:00.000-04:00

* whack *Humans as a species, are constantly, and in every way, comparing themselves to one another, which, given the brief nature of their existence, seems an oddity, and for that matter, a waste. Nevertheless, this is the driving influence behind eveyr human's social development, their emotional health and sense of joy, and, sadly, their greatest tragedies. It is as though something that helped

2005-09-19T15:10:00.000-04:00

her·mit:1. A person who has withdrawn from society and lives a solitary existence2. hazelin my challenge to others to be more open and vulnerable, so that we may all grow closer together as brothers in sisters in Christ, i figure that i too should make the first step in taking the risk of opening up... lest i be called a hypocrite. and i guess opening up for me, involves blogging even when i'm in

2005-09-15T08:50:00.000-04:00

* re-focusing *a lot has happened since the last post ... i gotta get better at keeping this thing up. hopefully i'll find more time to do it this year. sooo.. since i last posted something, tonz have happened... some good, some bad, some happy, and some sad. and i've found that at the end of the day, even after all the bad and sad things that have happened, i am truly blessed. i'm blessed to be

2005-08-01T21:52:00.000-04:00

* ruminating *my head hurts :Plotsa stuff has happened this weekend, that which i'm not at liberty to share at the moment. i think it's all still sinking in, and i'm still trying to wrap my head around it, and understand it, comprehend it, and make some sort of sense out of everything. it's as if life just suddenly became oh so complex and complicated ... makes the head hurt. one thing i do know.

2005-06-29T23:21:00.000-04:00

Have you ever wondered ... ... "if God created us in His image or if we created Him in ours?" was reading this in Donald Miller's latest book: Searching for God knows what. and it really hit me. don't know why, don't know how.. just kinda felt this huge divine nudge. i guess in each circumstance that we go through in life, it seems as though we change a little bit of how we perceive God. for

2005-06-19T18:16:00.000-04:00

*Lord I'm Amazed*the campfire's roaring. the sun has just gone down. the hour of mosquitoes is nearly over. the soft strumming of guitars begin to fill the night sky. add the (mini-)djembe and the voices of God's people. in the distance, tiny glowing orbs start to appear in the dry grass surrounding the campsite, lighting up the darkness for but a few short seconds. multitudes of orbs glow all

2005-06-06T23:57:00.000-04:00

*blessed*can a girl ask for any more? i'm so blessed, beyond belief. how many people can actually say that they are still in touch with and are still pretty close with people all the way back to highschool? probably quite a bit. elementary school? maybe a little less. grade 3? maybe some. grade 2? maybe a few. grade 1? possibly a couple. kindergarten? rarely. yet that's the truth. the girls in

2005-06-05T00:07:00.000-04:00

*let the show begin*so, after many months of hibernation... which i blame in part on school and my lack of zeal in blogging, i've decided to make use of this little corner of the web. :) so i've tried to revive my blog.. yay!!! 'n' tried to add a bit of a personal touch to it... (like the banner!! :D you know, flex some design muscles so that they don't get 'sore' when school starts up again...

2005-02-24T10:43:00.001-05:00

*marks don't get you into heaven* i remember saying this to a Christian friend of mine way back in elementary school when she kept freaking out about her marks. and i guess at the time it made so much sense... after this life is through, it's not like God's gonna look at our transcripts and report cards of the past and say "mmm.. you only got a B average... sorry... can't let you in." and yet in

2004-12-02T20:01:00.000-05:00

ever had one of those days? soooo... can we say stress? that's pretty much been my life for the past week or so. fun fun fun. see, in design, they love seeing students squirm, so they make ALL the projects due ALL at the same time. :P nah... i'm not bitter really.. just tired. so today was definitely one of those days. after not sleeping all night cuz i was working on a project and writing an

2004-10-04T01:24:00.000-04:00

What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary. But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions,

2004-09-19T18:05:00.000-04:00

* workin on the FAITH thing * We live by faith, not by sight. 2 corinthians 5:7 Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." matthew 21:21-22

2004-07-28T22:51:00.000-04:00

wowzas... havn't done this in an uber-long time. what can i say? summer? what summer??? i'm taking psych 1010 correspondence, so i'm not gettin much of a summer... for me, summer officially starts on Aug. 6... ack! and we don't get that extra week before school starts like we useta... WE START SCHOOL W/ EVERYONE ELSE!!! waaahhhh!!!neways... i'm pretty much living @ mitchells this summer. if

2004-05-19T09:35:00.000-04:00

okay, it's been ages since i've touched this. since my last blog, i've successfully finished my first year of university.. yayy!!! and now well into summer school.. boooo!!! but actually truth: it's not that bad.. i'm doing psych correspondence so i dun hafta go to school for class or nething but i DO hafta go in and write 4 exams and the course runs all the way till august... which is no fun. :(

2004-01-13T10:20:00.000-05:00

hmm.. where can i start? so far school starting up again has been... interesting. it seems a l'il more enjoyable this semester, despite the fact that i have three 8:30am classes, but i guess it's arrite.. means that i finish classes earlier. anyways... moving on to more of the spiritual stuff, which i guess i havn't really mentioned in a while... i've realized within the past couple of days or so

2003-12-02T15:39:00.000-05:00

oh my... the semester's gone by super quick... in a couple of days i woulda just lived through my first semester of university.. wheee!!!! well depends i guess. still kinda bummed that i'm not gettin the same marks as in high school, but it's expected and i guess i'm just getting used to it now. :P phew... one more project and one more exam to go.. then... FREEDOM!!!! my goodness, i can't wait.

2003-10-05T23:58:00.000-04:00

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God--this is your spiritual act of worship. romans 12:1 okay.... where do i start? the verse up there? totally relevent to wat's been goin on in my life i guess. i dunno.. right now i feel like i'm in a ditch... not a lot of things seem to be going right... *sigh* not cool...

2003-09-29T10:04:00.000-04:00

arritey. almost the end of september and i'm just blogging NOW. yet again, i'm in my multimedia class. itz not too bad.. i'm actually learning things. =) feel kinda out of it at times though, just cuz i don't have the right book, well at least not the right edition of the book, and i'm kinda groping in the dark. but itz okay. PRAISE GOD for makin me a fast learner. phew! now i just gotta get

2003-09-08T09:43:00.000-04:00

i'm sitting in class.

2003-09-02T22:36:00.000-04:00

wowweee... havn't blogged in an uber-long time... =) so... august has come and gone and september's now here... ooOOoo.. fun, right??? RIGHT??? i really don't know what to say... i dun even know what's going thru my head much less what'z going on around me. went to york frosh today... i must say it wuzn't the best experience in the world... it wasn't the worst or nething... but nothing really

2003-07-27T22:48:00.000-04:00

'kay... this isn't really anything deep or nething like that.. just felt like typing... and since ther's no one really home or available to talk to at nite, then i figured i'd just ramble on here in my blog! =) so.. this is me... and how i'm feeling... i am ... tired ... ... exhausted ... ... injured ... ... a l'il frustrated ... ... missin someone (smo) ... ... happy ... ... thankful ... ...

2003-07-23T14:17:00.000-04:00

"... you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God." 1 corinthians 6:11 it's so awesome to know how forgiving God really is. honestly.... we're so... well i know i'm so unworthy to be standing in His presence, fellowshiping with His children (and my basics), leading worship, playing the piano for worship... and just a

2003-06-28T09:42:00.000-04:00

"The Lord says: "These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men." isaiah 29:13 God is phenomenal. there really isn't anything else to say. He never ceases to amaze. youth on a hill's second event was last nite... still continuing with the vision of revival through

2003-06-20T01:19:00.000-04:00

oh my goodness... tonite's gotta be one of the most memorable nites of my life... like seriously. just goin out and chillin with my friends for a belated birthday celebration... something i'll never forget... it wuz so much fun, and even tho i didn't have a camera to snap all the pix.... itz gonna be forever embedded in my head. all the laughs that we had tonite and all the memoriez shared.. and

2003-06-17T09:10:00.000-04:00

... now is the moment, forever is the memory ... four years of high school nine years of elementary school eleven years of spiritual life eighteen years of life ... many more years to come ... it's crazie how fast time flies by.... can't believe highschool's over and done with, and i can't believe that i'm already eighteen. it's really insane... seriously... i don't even FEEL eighteen... then

2003-06-03T21:54:00.000-04:00

whooo... havn't blogged in a while.. yet i have so much to say too! strange... actually, i've been finding myself away from the comp a lot nowadayz... wellz... some updates i guess... (tho i dun really know who reads this...) I'M DONE EXAMZ!!! PRAISE GOD!!! basically done all high school examz... i have a few summatives and isps and presentations left to do, but the examz are done and over with

2003-05-26T00:40:00.000-04:00

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. james 1:2-4 what a fitting verse and sermon for the day... been realizing as the day continues that there's so much stuff i gotta do and go thru in the

2003-05-09T22:44:00.000-04:00

*SMACK!!!* "Once we lose sight of God, we begin to be reckless. We cast off certain restraints from activities we know are wrong. We set prayer aside as well and cease having God’s vision in the little things of life. We simply begin to act on our own initiative. If we are eating only out of our own hand, and doing things solely on our own initiative without expecting God to come in, we are on a

2003-05-06T12:03:00.000-04:00

wow school's tiring... and i only had one class this morning... meh.. watevr... got to talk to some old friends during a very VERY boring tap session. i dun get why we still have tap when we're graduating.. i mean ther's really only so much to know about university apps and what not... well yah.. so they were talking about living on res and the stuff u should do to survive first year, all stuff i

2003-04-29T19:48:00.000-04:00

okay.. so i wuz blogging last nite when everything i wuz typing went *poof!* and disappeared.. and me being tired and mostly lazy, i didn't bother retyping... but i guess i can give the point-forms of what i wuz bloggin/learning last nite.... it wuz based on this: "Whoever tries to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it." luke 17:33 Are you prepared to

2003-04-28T00:33:00.000-04:00

mmm.. where to start... letz just say God's been doing some smackin upside the head again... which is good, cuz i think i really really really needed it anyway... and He clearly wasn't getting thru nudging me... so yah.. the whack wuz much needed. been learning tonz lately.. just about life, and true love, and wow.. just lotz.. can't list 'em all... too many to name... just today, God spoke like

2003-04-25T23:36:00.000-04:00

amazingly, i've been able to find time in the mornings to get myself outta bed and spend some time with God. granted, it's not the longest time, and sometimes i get side-tracked worrying about the time (don't wanna be late for school now), but starting the day off with God and reading the same devo at nite has really proved to be helpful. of course not everything is inspirational or life-changing

2003-04-24T00:38:00.000-04:00

Beware of any work for God that causes or allows you to avoid concentrating on Him. my utmost for His highest so... yet again, God proves Himself faithful... and when you pray, u're guaranteed to get answers. so as i wuz bloggin last nite... i need to listen more and just drop everything to hear His voice... cuz yah.. i've been so wrapped up in all the stuff thaz coming up... softball, work,

2003-04-23T00:38:00.000-04:00

The secret of the servant’s life is that he stays in tune with God all the time. my utmost for His highest okay... wow... just... wow... the things that have been happening lately are just mind-boggling. seriously. i dun even know where to start! i guess first off... lotsa prayer... i dun think i've been spending nearly enuff time in prayer as i should be. and when i am praying, itz like my

2003-04-15T23:55:00.000-04:00

God is good honestly, don't know what else to say... God's just been mad blessing me left right and center kinda thing....1st thing's first... GOD GOT ME INTO YORK!!!! whooo!!!! my first choice!!!!!!! ackk!!!! i dunno... i'm so excited and happy, but now itz decision making time.. york or ocad... ppl are tellin me ocad.. otherz are tellin me york... gotta do some crazie praying about it.... oh

2003-04-14T22:09:00.000-04:00

"When you bow down before the Lord and admit your dependence on him, he will lift you up and give you honor." james 4:10 okay... so God's still teaching. read this yesterday... just totally coincides with the whole 100% dependence = pure joy... wow... God's too good... =) mmm.. ANYwayz.. only three dayz of school this week, but madly packed with WAAAAYYY too many things... found out yesterday

2003-04-12T22:06:00.000-04:00

mmmm... God's been quiet... not completely silent, but not throwing me around the room and whacking me across the head either... just quiet... whispering i guess? but yah... been learnin a few things this week... more at the beginning of the week i guess, cuz there were a coupla days when i wuz just in a funk... dunno why.. but yah... just those dayz i guess... ANYwayz.. lessons learned: test

2003-04-07T01:21:00.000-04:00

... the trials in life are not enemies of faith, but are opportunities to prove God's faithfulness ... okay.. life is .... crazie... i can't say life sux, cuz it doesn't.. i've been given sooo many blessings that even when the trials in life come along, they don't seem that tough, cuz i've got amazing support... PRAISE GOD... okay... so first of all, thingz are a l'il hectic with school, work,

2003-03-31T00:05:00.000-05:00

oh my... havn't blogged in AGES.... i hate being so busy... *sigh* wish i had more time on my hands... but itz all good.. God's still shining thru all the hectic-ness... mmm.. where to begin? its been like a week since i last blogged? something like that... but in a week so much has happened!!! wow... i guess itz now time to reflect.. hahaha... hopefully i get back to blogging like everyday so i

2003-03-21T23:14:00.000-05:00

wow... its been a week since tc... and i didn't completely finish the whole backtracking thing... so i guess i'll start with that and then continue with what went on this week and how God's been pulling me through... wheee!!! =D arrites... so the thurs of march break.. the last day of tc... it wuz tiring.. just cuz we all didn't get a whole lotta sleep and we even slept IN ... but yah... i wuz

2003-03-16T19:27:00.000-05:00

okay... i'll probably be blogging in sections today.. just cuz there's so much stuff crammed into my head and i gotta get my thots organized a bit? mmm.. where to begin.. how about with TODAY... then we'll backtrack? so today wuz the first day back @ cecc... wow... never knew how much i missed my brotherz and sisterz there.. and itz interesting cuz i went back and just FELT different being there.

2003-03-10T12:14:00.000-05:00

mmm... TC THIS WEEK!! wwwwwhhhhoooooaaaa!! (as sammi would say...=) can't believe itz already here... three months since we started.... gone by so fast... crazie!!! itz been an amazing three monthz tho... God's been teaching in every way possible... can't wait to see what He's gonna do @ tc... what He's gonna do to the people that are going.. what He's gonna do to me... oh my.. i have a feeling

2003-03-07T00:15:00.000-05:00

"God's work... done in God's way... never lacks God's blessings" heard that on the radio today at lunch... my dad wuz listenin to some speaker on wdcx.... itz really self-explanatory... well.. brain's shut off for the day... actually it's kinda been "off" since i handed in my calc test.. hahahaha.. whoo!!! PRAISE GOD!!! He got me thru that test... insane-ness... hehehehe... i know i didn't study

2003-03-05T10:38:00.000-05:00

"Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow..." wooo.. crazie outside today!!! waaah... missed volleyball cuz of all the snow... they still had practice too!! =P oh wellz.. tmw's another day... another practice.. wheee!!! hehehe... runnin tandems are fun... esp when u have two HUGE guyz jumpin then me on the side... so tiny.. hehehe... grrr... need to grow... =) okay.. losing my mind... thaz what

2003-03-04T00:27:00.000-05:00

"God, please reveal urself in the small stuff today..." okay.. just a quick l'il blog... need some sleep.. gotta get up early for volleyball again tmw... WHEE!! so much fun.. =) newayz... God really answered my prayers today.. woooo!!! prayers work!!!! =D but yah... after Chris' msg yesterday, i guess i really got challenged to seek God more.. and to like look for Him in the small stuff (hehehe.

2003-03-02T20:07:00.000-05:00

"Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls." jeremiah 6:16 wow.... been silent for a few dayz... meh.. watevr! this weekend wuz amazing... tc worship on friday, saturday, AND sunday, WOOO!!! LOVE U GUYZ!!! hehehehe... my goodness.. can't believe TC is two weekz away!!! ackkk!!!! freakiness... so

2003-02-27T22:25:00.000-05:00

so tired... so sleepie... business test wuz okay... hope i did well... hahaha.. sorrie to whoever's reading... my sentences might not be complete, cuz the brain's slowly shutting down... =P ANYhow... today wuz a great day... lotsa fun with volleyball prac in the morning.. oh my goodness... the guyz on the team jump my height!!! ack!!! scariness!! but itz cool cuz we're learnin how to run tandems

2003-02-26T23:23:00.000-05:00

"Let everything that Everything that Everything that has breath PRAISE THE LORD" wow... i dont' know what to say about today... God's been working in HUGE wayz.. just wow... speechless... kay.. this is how the day went... so amazing!!!! morning volleyball practice... then five minz before class starts, the usual morning music starts playing.. its usually the latest pop songs or watevr's been

2003-02-25T19:03:00.000-05:00

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances..." 1 thessalonians 5:16-18 wow.. today wuz yet another awesome day... THANKS GOD...=) mmm.... lemme think.. yesterday went by prettie quick... don't know why.. it wuz a monday too! but it flew by really quickly... but yah.. and my phys test wuz okay... i guess.. dunno if i did like REALLY well or not, i guess i'll find out

2003-02-23T00:46:00.000-05:00

wow... what an awesome day. don't have a verse in mind to share.. but yah... today wuz awesome... first i woke up and like had a bazillion thingz to do on my mind... =P but yah... once i got somewhat organized and actually LEFT the house and got going with my day... it wuz fun... =) okay... lemme see.. worship prac... fun times... God's times.. hahaha.. =) got some stuff out into the open with

2003-02-22T01:09:00.000-05:00

"The Lord is wonderfully good to those who wait for Him and seek Him." lamentations 3:25 (nlt) WHOO!!! okay.. been silent for a while on blogger.. just cuz portfolio interviews!!! aaah!!!! but u know what??? PRAISE GOD!!! He got me through 'em... with unbelievable calmness too... thanks to all the ppl who were prayin for me and the interviews this past week... God heard ur prayers.... PRAISE

2003-02-19T22:52:00.000-05:00

okay.. nerves are REALLY REALLY building now... been getting my portfolio organized today for my interviews... worrying about 'em one @ a time.. first york.. THEN ocad... ack.. both are freaking me out tho... talked to my art teachers today and they're like u're on a good track, u're set.. just go and be confident and speak... oh my goodness... i'm like stressed, yet unbelievably calm... but i

2003-02-18T16:45:00.000-05:00

waaahh!!! mad stressed!!! =P can't believe my interviews are in 2/3 dayz!!! oh my goodness... scared!! =P got so much stuff to do to prep for 'em too.. and then NEXT week... lemme see... 2 tests, one quest, possibly one presentation... argh... so busy, so stressed.. need time to be still before God and just BE... =) so NEwayz... wuz kinda "sew hay" today (as katrina would say... hahaha.. ) grr..

2003-02-16T21:08:00.000-05:00

"For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything." 1 john 3:20 what an awesome promise to cling to... especially JUST after valentines day... hahaha.. i got into a really strange conversation with someone about what valentines day is actually celebrating and where it originated.. hahaha.. interesting tho... looked it up at historychannel.com (i know i know.. i'm sucha nerd.. hahaha

2003-02-15T01:45:00.000-05:00

wow.. itz 1:30am and i'm not in bed... i'm insane... i know i know... and i have a super long day tmw... oh my... today wuz... valentines day... so everyone's bf/gf wuz @ school today, and well i finally got a chance to just TALK to my friends.. i miss 'em so much!!! i've been so busy and caught up in "stuff" lately that i havn't even had the time to just talk to 'em... waah!! but today wuz good.

2003-02-13T14:53:00.000-05:00

okay... so 3-4 hrs of sleep isn't really working for me right now... =P but all's good... signed out after 2nd period and just slept... surprisingly, i had the energy to get up in the morning to GO to the first two periods... PRAISE GOD! =) got work tonite.. bleh... itz okay tho i guess... work ppl are awesome... =) and i get to look around at more stuff i wanna buy.. hahaha.. oh my goodness..